_ a real slow >active< dumping ground for ongoing research and notes, accummulated over time _
solidarity in difference
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rummaging
a filtered process
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it took norah ten minutes to pen the first few sentences while i gave her keywords/key thoughts to work around. it helped to work with norah because they read aloud what they write. the voice is not a quiet one; it was important that it remained that way as it showers over the works presented at my solo exhibition Entangled Attachments.
thank you norah for lending your voice and being so gentle with me/my work.
you can find the full text via their instagram here.
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i can feel u thru my
rubbing, adjusting, gliding, stretching
memories pulse thru the veins of each extension–metals,
wires, hooks, frames.
skin-to-almost kin
<r u living thru me>
<r u nearby>
<can u feel we>
<r u nearby>
<can u feel we>
...observing the ways in which these smaller circles (within queer networks)
unknowingly coexist, producing & reproducing embodied knowledges.
I believe in touch. I believe that a physical, tactile relationship with other trans bodies
is what I need to ground myself in my own transness. To feel the weight of another trans
body against mine, for them to trust me in holding their weight that knowing I won’t perceive their weight as a baggage, but as a grounding factor.
To remind me that I am alive and that they are too.
I can feel our hearts beating again. <This form of trust demands for slowness - no
rushing - not in the way this society demands us to consume one another>
This is not about scratching surfaces
This is about digging in deeper with our fingers,
knees, thighs, mouths, shoulders, tummies,
and knowing when to stop.
There is a strictness in the expression and consciousness, especially when performing
as/for cis(gender). They pay attention to the ways their body orientates itself;
the way it falls into corners, edges and flat surfaces.The way it adjusts and postures.
In early 2022, I invited folks within my immediate queer networks to take part in an activity, exploring gestures of
intimacy and the ways we negotiate proximity and boundaries in our relationships. What do we actively exchange in these quieter forms of exchanges? Do we prioritise who and what we should?
some prompts:
mutuality, entangled, complexed,
proximity,
hold, safer, love, difficult, revision,
trusting,
held, weight,
allowances, adjustment, redo, warmth,
snug, assurance,
fixture, fluctuation.
mutuality, entangled, complexed,
proximity,
hold, safer, love, difficult, revision,
trusting,
held, weight,
allowances, adjustment, redo, warmth,
snug, assurance,
fixture, fluctuation.
It started out quite small. I first noticed these dead knots on my back. Multiple singular points, unreachable. Every stretch backwards made me hyper aware of these little bulges cluttered, gathering. These pains around my body pushed me to reach out, to recognise that this hyperawareness could also exist independent of the pains themselves. A hyperawareness in posture. This constant need for adjustment–re-adjustment–and to be knocked back into a position that respects all the lines, shadows, crooks and curls.